JUST TO WAKE UP

 IN GOOD OR BAD MOOD THAT'S THE QUESTION

Wake up it is something difficult for me. Just the act of beginning a new day after being sleep for hours required from me a big effort to start the morning cheerful, with a smile in my face, even just saying something like good morning my dear, have you sleep well?.

If there is something irregular in my life the first thought I have in the morning it is just this problem.
A friend who is passing through difficulties, subjects with the family or in the office, when I was working, and so forth...always the first thought should be so.
I do think it happens to nearly every person but sure I am not so certain about this  premise, not all people have to feel the same, that´s for sure.
Good luck for them as getting up in bad mood it is always quite disagreeable for people around me.

Who knows how a baby sleep? or an adult? it is always  the form a baby dreams to the way of an old person?. Why some people are a good wake up and other a bad
humor just since there were born?

Being a children it was hard to wake up to go to the school very soon. I could remember that the hour of being in it was 8 a.m. every day and it cost me a lot.
Madrid it is a city very cold in Winter. Usually we have less two or three degrees at the morning to reach up fourteen or fifteen at noon which it is a big difference and the body suffers this changes in temperatura aching a lot.

Now I could see that children go to the school being so small, and they use to cry aloud every morning just because the don´t want to go.
I do think it is cruel what we do with the little babies  taking them so small to the nurseries every morning just because their parents have to work.

Being a baby, a boy and finally and adult I have felt always the same, my humor is bad as son as I open my eyes in the mornings.
I need at least half an hour to get my humor in a good way, to talk or to reply some questions or even to be concious about the reality of a new day, good , bad or or the simple daily routine of the moment is living.

Yes, I can imagine what could be the feelings of a person that his life have changed suddenly from a day to another. The dead of a husband or a wife, a son or daughter, a sudden sickness or accident that changes our way of living for ever.
Just the first subject we use to think as my eyes are open is all the reality of the moment, the lack of my mother, a bad situation in the office, the last argue with my wife or a friend, and so on.

However I know persons close to me that use to wake up brightness, happy, in good mood to talk since the first moment they awake. Giving thanks of being alive and facing reality with strength and courage undar any circunstance.
I admire these persons, my wife Cuca is one of them, and always I wanted to be like them, to have this will from the first moment of the day.
Gift of life and optimism of living just the moment without thinking anything about, feeling that being alive it is the best gift a human could have.

Now that I am depressed it is even worst, mornings are the hard hour of the day. I want to remain in bed, one two three hours, or more. It is the feeling of not wishing to live a new day.
I would like to be like people, like Cuca, that every morning think "Thanks to God" I am alive and I want to conquer the world, things are as they are and no one can change them once occurred.


We can do a better world with our mind, despite our weakness or missing our loved ones, knowing that life is a daily struggle and that it depends only of us, only from oneself doing happy every day of our life.
Just live in the moment without thinking about future and nothing more.

A big smile in the mornings, giving thanks to be alive and being in good humor to
say "good morning" my dear how are you?. Have you sleep well?....
That could be enough but use to be so difficult for some persons like me.

 

 

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